Life.Planted.

What a beautiful Mother's Day weekend, I got super spoiled!!  I am so thankful for my three little blessings, who always make me laugh, make sure we are never lacking things to clean, keep me on my toes, make sure to follow me everywhere so I'm not lonely, help me spend our money, make sure I don't forget my name and give endless hugs and kisses. They are the best adventure and everyday I try and find ways to make life the best for them, because they deserve nothing less. Life would be so pointless and boring without you. 

The weather is getting warmer. Color is slowly crawling into all the spaces of the world like a watercolor being painted. We had a nice Easter. We finally got to go spend some time with my grandma! She's vaccinated, we are vaccinated, the weather is nice to sit outside. We had Easter egg hunts, lots of candy and food! 

Late night conversations ringing through the quiet hallways. Giggles, so many giggles.  Sleepy little blue eyes.  Mama is gonna fall off the bed. "I'll hold you." Baby boy holding onto mama so she doesn’t fall off the twin size bed.  Begging her not to leave.  If he could only stay this way forever. Being happy and content with the simple things, like just being able to lay next to mama As she kisses little pale plump cheeks.  He won't sleep in his room alone.  So mama lays close until the little eyes close and the breathing gets steady.  She quietly slips away from little strong arms Tucks him in Kisses him good night  And finds comfort in her own bed to retreat away from the exhaustion of another day.  If only he knew, I was the one holding onto him, not wanting to let go, all these little moments I'll never get back. 

March Cold, dreary winter is coming to an end. One step closer to the sound, the smell, the feel of spring!  9 more days until it’s officially spring!!! Oh how I have missed the warmth of the sunshine, The colors of the plants and leaves growing on the trees. The smell of the flowers blooming, reaching for the sky, stretching from a long winter's sleep. The feel of the dirt, grass, sand underneath bare feet.  Catching bunnies out of the corner of your eye running through the yard.  I had a horrible weekend at work. It's exhausting staying positive and hanging onto something that eats at your soul. Being one person, you can only do so much. It took me all day Monday to recover and get over my anxiety.  The weather this week has more than made up for the crappy weekend and has lifted my spirits. It's been so beautiful out. AND we surprised the kids with a sweet little blue heeler puppy who has stolen our hearts- and of course my bed and my sleep. The week before we got...